Lifeless!!

It's been a long time never update my blog!! suddenly got some "kik" wanna blog..Haha:)

Something just wanna mention over here is recently that very tiring caused by everything (Job,study, car, relationship, etc.....)  and made me totally fed up of it. 

I was too committed in my part-time rather than my study.WTF is that, i"m suppose to focus in my study like everyone of my friends but wonder why i'm just too care about my job.

I should not be too tolerate over my job but if in the other way i have to work instead of staying in home or hanging out around and doing nothing every weekends.!

I don't even dare to think what will i do if i really stop my part-time job, totally and for sure  will not take any notes to read if free. So, what the hell i still want to complaint on it!

Sometimes really feel tension and tired with everything that surrounding me, but i know myself better that is i more prefer to tie myself in a pack environment.

Besides that, there are some up-side-down happened to me is that i've failed a subject in my study but in the other side of academic i got distinction in my classical guitar exam!!God, there's no win-win situation on me.

Nothing much that i can say about it and i'm not a multi-task machine!

This is what we call life!! 

Imbalance emotions.

Frankly to say, being a kind heart person always easily to let people treat you like a dumbass. You always think that you have the kindest heart because you care and willing be the shield to them but at the end you may ruin yourself because the evil minded friends will always take your sincerity as your weakness. You treat them from the bottom of your heart and they treat you like a dumbass and taking thing for granted.

It's really hard to know why this bloody shit could behave like that. I'm just an ordinary man with simple mind and not complex like you. Wonder why you could treat me like this and think that i'm stupid enough with your sweetie words to manipulate and convince me. Sometimes i act like a dumbass because i want to see how stupid is you with your fake expression. Finger on my mouth is just because i don't want to make it be the ends of our friendship. You should appreciate how i treat you as one of the precious friends instead of taking advantage from me.

Please, i'm just want be nice to everyone.

Don't push me to the limit of my patient if not i really throw my temper on you and it will be the ends between us.

So, just let it be me and not take advantage from me like a waterfish!!

Breathless

What the f**king day i had today. Sometimes i really hope i can stay at home rather than working. How can i don't think about my life is miserable, i gonna ruined my life if still keep going on with my this very pathetic job. The reasons why i hate my job:

• 10 hours working a day (Suffer)
  
• No break time
• need to be on call
• Suffer to customers face (Suffer)
  
• No overtime (OT)

I'm so so tired with this job already. Really hope can quit now!!

SO Suffer,struggle and miserable with it.

Personal thoughts.

My lovely classmate.

It's gonna end for my Diploma year.I've been in this college for three years and yet now still not the time for me to say goodbye with this college. I could still remember almost every moments those days with my gang that filled with joys and Laughing , argue-ing with each others , struggling and suffering with assignments. That's what we call college's life.

I always hope and wish to study more in my life time although i'm not as good as other people in study but this not a reason to stop me. I could still rememer the time when i say it to some of my friends that i'm gonna go for study and their reaction were laughing at me and start to predict how long could i study at there. Well, this might the way how a friend treat me as a laughing stock. I still remember someone had told me that i'm just wanna to hide myself from the reality and that's why i go for study. I admit last time i was thought in that way but when time is going without waiting me i used to ask myself why i'm here to study, why always being the laughing stock if i go for study and why always me the one being criticised by them.

Thanks for everything, i could take it all the ways what you all said to me and because of it now i could figure out myself. I will do anything without any reasons and don't ask me why, as long as it is good for me and i'll do it. This is why i'm here today and not much to say that i'm good enough and proud to myself what i've done in these 3 years.

Life is like gambling especially in my age right now cause i don't have any career in my hand and i'm just a part time worker. What so ever, i will place a bet in study again and advance my study to get a degree. I might couldn't effort the fees but i'll take loan although the interest quite high. One more time i want to mention here, I'm the one who choose to study and there are no people force me, and somemore i'm not fully depedent on my family for my study purposes. I'm just a bit lucky than others if want to compare cause i have sisters and brothers to help me in my financial recently but no one knows what really happen in my previous days. Stop judging me with your very rough eyes sight because you never look at yourself deeply.

There are some promises that i have made to myself first, is never involve in a relationship anymore in my study time because it's pain and hurt but it was a way to knock me awake in dreaming. Second, must nominate myself as a degree holder in my life and the last one is to polish up my english and also in speaking.

Is time to study.



It's pain and hurt but it was the precious lesson i've learnt so far in my life!!

Struggling

Actually i'm not suppose at here for blogging, but recently my days really messed up and not organize. Everything just suddenly popping out likes my pimples.

I really don't know how to manage it properly.

1. My Study. ( Assignments and Exam)
2. My guitar class. ( Gonna exam soon and still not yet practice)
3. My part time job.( Not enough worker and often clash with my study)
4.My knee pain recently quite often visit me and couldn't sleep well.

I'm gonna lost!!

Everything is pushing me to my limits.

Yet this might what i want since the day........................!

And now i met them!

Figure out everthing and there must be someways to go through this time.

Final semester

Media relations assignment (interview)

This is the final semester for diploma. Although is a short semester but it's gonna be the tougher semester for me. Most of the assignments are more on practical and just left 5 more weeks to go. Come on, Have to catch up everything and do more than talk and no more procrastinate.

Do what is necessary and always be in positive thoughts.

Family reunion day

Is already Chinese new year eve, Later morning have to start packing my lugage and going back to my grandma's house at Bentong,Pahang.Before going back to my grandma's house my mum will wake up early in the morning later and prepare for the family reunion (lunch). It might looks weird for us because others people family reunion at the night but our's in afternoon.For me, all my siblings come back and eat together on the table that is more than enough. Sometimes we no need to be too strictly and follow all the rules of tradition culture yet we are now in the modern age already.Sitting with all my sisters and brothers together is very rare happen in my family due to some circumstances.

Well, Everything seems like solved but to know whether is or isn't depends on the family reunion later.So bless everything will be OKAY for me later.

Happy Family Reunion day and Chinese New Year.

Way back to home

Today really tired for the long drive vacation from Kulim. Everything went smooth and enjoyed every moments inside the car with my sis. While on the way heading back to kajang we went to IPOH there take our lunch at Restaurant Lou Wong which is famous with Bean sprout chicken rice. Once i arrived Ipoh town there, The first impression on my mind are the heritage building surroundings me. Now i could understand why people always keep saying Ipoh oldtown.I am a partial ipoh guy because my parent are from there and i never been there before. This is my first time went to Ipoh town and gonna miss there.

After the lunch i continue my duty as a driver and keep chit-chatting with my sis to make myself more energize while driving. It took almost 3 hours from Ipoh to reach home because on the half way we lost our direction and went to Subang there. Well, just take it as a lesson! Once i reach home my mum was very happy and keep smilling with us because we are safe and sound.By last, i broke my personal driving record for driving 5 hours and 300++ Kilometres a trip.

Tomorrow have to work and get Red packet from my boss as my reward!!

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day.

Good night!!

Medicine pot!!

I'm sick again!!
Help me............

I already bought a capsule of chinese medicine and had eaten for few times but just remain the same. Can i know is this a package FLu+Sore throat+cough?
Whatever, i need to be cured before this wednesday because have to go kulim..

No Ice Drinks
No Fried chicken
No Dried meat (BA GUA)

BUT

More water
More Fruits

And

More Love...(Sickening)

Shadow

Am i thinking too much?

Thanks for the days
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the joys

AND

Thanks for the nightmare.....

There are many things outside the box..

What more i can say to express my EMO but

You still at somewhere inner me and shadowing to recall back those moments.